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I don't really know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know anything. I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. My dad keeps talking about university, but I don't even know if I want to go. I can't say that though. It'll just be the same "you're going to end up working in Tesco" and "we just want what's best for you" bullshit. I think I should know what's best for me since I'm the one in my head. But apparently that doesn't count because I'm a child. I don't deserve to be listened to.
I want to work im the music industry, I think. But I don't know how i can justify that to my parents. Maybe I don't have to. It's my life for fucks sake. I love music so much. I don't think anything brings me as much joy as listening to and creating music. I think it's worth it. Even if I'm shittily paid. Surely, doing what you love and actually wanting to wake up and go to work in the morning beats the paycheck. If one more person tells me that I need to get a job that makes loads of money I might lose it.
I don't know what I want with my life. I don't know if I want to get married or have children or even have sex. But everyone just keeps expecting me to do that. I think my parents will think there's something wrong with me if I tell them I don't want to ever get married. The concept is just too scary. I can't do that. Commit myself to a singular person. Because what if they turn out to be a horrible person. Or they aren't the "one", whatever that means. My friend told me that there isn't such thing as "the one", but surely that just complicates this even more. How do I know I'm making the right choice. Im just so terrified of messing up.
- Rom
I want to work im the music industry, I think. But I don't know how i can justify that to my parents. Maybe I don't have to. It's my life for fucks sake. I love music so much. I don't think anything brings me as much joy as listening to and creating music. I think it's worth it. Even if I'm shittily paid. Surely, doing what you love and actually wanting to wake up and go to work in the morning beats the paycheck. If one more person tells me that I need to get a job that makes loads of money I might lose it.
I don't know what I want with my life. I don't know if I want to get married or have children or even have sex. But everyone just keeps expecting me to do that. I think my parents will think there's something wrong with me if I tell them I don't want to ever get married. The concept is just too scary. I can't do that. Commit myself to a singular person. Because what if they turn out to be a horrible person. Or they aren't the "one", whatever that means. My friend told me that there isn't such thing as "the one", but surely that just complicates this even more. How do I know I'm making the right choice. Im just so terrified of messing up.
- Rom
