Face it, You're never gonna make it.

Mocks stress is really getting to me. I've cried so many times. But I don't even know what I'm stressed about. I know I can pass, and that's all I really need. I need a 4 in English, 5 in Art, 6 in Physics and 7 in Maths. That's all. But I'm terrified I'm going to fail. The stress officially got too much and I relapsed. I knew it was going to happen, but I'm still pissed because I was 3 months clean. That's a fucking record for me. I hope that means I'm getting better.
All my parents can do is shout at me. I can't do anything fucking right. At least I'm in Spain this weekend. I want to go to charity shops and buy cool shit.
Everything's just piling up and I don't know how to stop it. Mock revision, grade 6 piano, music theory, art coursework, imedia coursework and it's just all too much.

138 days to go - and counting.

- Roman